Oops

So yesterday was fab.

We spent the whole day literally just messing around. It wasn't just me & ben though, but seeing as it was his birthday, people wanted to hang around with him.

Anyway, i think i pushed the whole me and ben thing a bit too much. he hasnt spoken to me at all this morning. i mean, usually we have contact about 10 and then again at 12 and then at 2 and so on...

And that hasnt happened. he was supposed to be helping me with my general studies but he never text me :(

Whats going on??

Who knows to be honest.

Oh well, anyway, yesterday was fun. we just hung around town with his best friend and my matt. But matt took me to one side and was like, 'i know you like him, and he blatantly likes you too. He's treating you like a girlfriend already.' and i was all... 'erm, explanation.' and his answer was, 'the way you two act is like youve been together for months and months. you pass each other things without looking, you move out of the way when yu no the other one is behind you, you put your arms round each other when your walking, you hug each other after saying something mean. Its just so couply Roo, sort it.' So i was like...shit, i am actually in love with ben.

Oh my days.

Matts gonna help me apparently... i have no idea how but he is.

Anyway i gotta go eat. #

Might update later.

B. xoxo <3

Birthday Beatings

ITS BENS BIRTHDAY

and he wants to go out to town with me this afternoon. Just me. Nobody else. ME

also, my cousing gave birth to a beautiful baby girl yesterday, Darcey Anne Maynard. Shes beautiful

This day just could not get better.

Updates later.

B xoxo

Ill!?

THATS RIGHT.

I'm poorly. Very, very stomach-achey. Not fun. But i do have the day off college :) which makes things slightly better. Also, i may have Ben & Co. related visitors. And if i get better i'll be able to go out and then i'll be even happier.

Anyway, I feel like i should give you some kind of witty statement... hmmmm.

So, im looking at Prospectuses for uni and so far I LOVE Plymouth, Bath and Hallam. Chicester though, how needy are they?! They sent me 8 of the same prospectus! Blatantly a wicked and failing attempt to try to take over my doorstep and therefore MAKE me attend Chicester university. This is not going to happen. They dont even do my course. Silly Chichy.

Ive just decided. Special day today folks. Due to the not going to college. I am going to update my blog at least 3 times today. Depending on how events go... xD

Loving it.
Feeling better already.

B. xoxo

Explanation much?

BEN

Thought i better explain myself cos' i can hear the tuts a mile off. "Rowan, not another one." Shut up, let me explain.. xD

I met Ben first December '08 at a cash machine. Random i know. We just struck up conversation. Anyway, we lost contact for a long long time and then re-met in February. I ended up going out with his best friend for 2 weeks. But we were the strangest couple ever. and he freaked me out and did my head in. DUMPED.

Ok, so Ben. I got with him a week after i dumped archer (said best friend) but that whole situation is forgotten. We were cheating ...and very, very drunk.

But i spent the day with him today, and it was amazing. Him, and his two best friends, who are equally as fantastic, just without the charm. We had no time alone, but thats good because i would of had a thrown-myself-at-him moment. which is NEVER fun. Learn from my mistakes kiddywinks, NEVER think that throw-at-him tactics are gonna get you anywhere. Definate no-go.

But maybe we're just friends and im reading too much into it. But we'll never know. Cos' i dont think i could EVER do anything about it. Unless he makes first move. <3

Also, STAR TREK MOVIE. SO GOOOOD. i definately could watch that over & over. New trekkie guys. How cool am i? Saw it today, advance screening in the wonder that is the Darlington Odeon, Screen 1. Sat in the seat where i had my first EVER kiss xD

Also, MaybeBabeyyy has asked me via my blog-email [rowzabb@hotmail.co.uk, if you wanna ask me anything, or just fancy a chat, gimme a buzz] to ask a few questions. And here they are, answered.

1. What do you listen to when you write this?
- Differs from day to day. Usually something like DANCE by Justice, Better off alone, or something generally happy. :)

2. Exactly what happened with Mike?
-I dont usually talk about it. But he forced me into things i didnt wanna do. then, when i stood my ground, got with a new girl at a party, right in front of me...silly.

3. What do you study?
-Media, Performance studies, Psychology and Englsih Language

4. Whats with the change in blog from your old-old one?
-I got hacked. hence the random last entry.

5. Do you write anything else?
-Not at the moment, might bring a new witty-banter, not about me type blog... but not until summer. Sorry folks.

6. How many hits do you get per blog?
-About 230 usually. Obviously the regulars, plus people just passing through.

Ok, so Q&A's answered...

And im really tired...

Off to bed..

Talk tomorrow..

B xoxo

Fighting is silly..xo

Fighting....again.

Thats right, me and matt are officially not together...nor are we fighting like we are. We are now just plain mean to each other. STUPID.

And tbh, i dont really mind, i mean, all good things & that... we were tiring of each other.. xD

but now there is Ben <3
And he is lovely, and funny, and ridiculously cute, and polite, clever, sarcastic to a good point, good-looking and yeah. Rambling.

Loving him by the way.
Ok, well, not love...but its close.

Out for today, a tad busy.

Roo xoxo

Bella who now?!

a lots changed in the last few months... hell, in the last year...

I am no longer with Mike. HE GOT WITH ANOTHER GIRL IN FRONT OF ME!

Anyway, im not even gonna, ew.

Ok, so the past year. Where do i start?

There was hannan, he wasnt really an anything... he was just there.
Then there was Matt, and truth be told, I loved him more than i ever loved a single thing. We broke up cos he was a bit... still liking his ex. But we still talk a lot and we're besties. :)

Tbh, me and matt still have some kind of emotional tie but we wont go there.

Today we had our first, maybe we should stop doing what we're doing talk. It was not fun. I hate awkward silences. When before i used to love the feeling of a silence...when yu know that someones thinking about what to say to make them love you more...

So, looks like im not the Bella Swan that i once was.

Or rather, i am, just not actively. 'Cos i can still love that one person who has that amazing hold on me and i dont even care.. i just havent found him yet. Or i probably have, and i just havent realised. I want that scared but in an amazing way feeling.

Ooh, im now at college, loving it. New best friends. Sarah & Matty [Not the same matty, he's matt] and matt obviously. They are my world. Other wonders include ben archer vince beth sian anna and sophie :)

Im'a sort it guys.

Loves.

B.
xoxo