a lots changed in the last few months... hell, in the last year...
I am no longer with Mike. HE GOT WITH ANOTHER GIRL IN FRONT OF ME!
Anyway, im not even gonna, ew.
Ok, so the past year. Where do i start?
There was hannan, he wasnt really an anything... he was just there.
Then there was Matt, and truth be told, I loved him more than i ever loved a single thing. We broke up cos he was a bit... still liking his ex. But we still talk a lot and we're besties. :)
Tbh, me and matt still have some kind of emotional tie but we wont go there.
Today we had our first, maybe we should stop doing what we're doing talk. It was not fun. I hate awkward silences. When before i used to love the feeling of a silence...when yu know that someones thinking about what to say to make them love you more...
So, looks like im not the Bella Swan that i once was.
Or rather, i am, just not actively. 'Cos i can still love that one person who has that amazing hold on me and i dont even care.. i just havent found him yet. Or i probably have, and i just havent realised. I want that scared but in an amazing way feeling.
Ooh, im now at college, loving it. New best friends. Sarah & Matty [Not the same matty, he's matt] and matt obviously. They are my world. Other wonders include ben archer vince beth sian anna and sophie :)
Im'a sort it guys.
Loves.
B.
xoxo
