I told you things wouldnt last forever.
He called it off last night didnt he? It was awful, i cried, i never cry at call-offs or break-ups or whatever this was. it was definately not in the least bit funny, and i feel like rubbish today, like ive actually been shot through the heart. to me, something so good shouldnt have ended so abruptly.
So im just going about my day, making sure i remember to breath in and out, and put one foot in front of the other. in a week maybe il just breath in and out without noticing again. Maybe.
And he said something, he was like "We'll just be like brother and sister when you come back. You are coming back arent you?" and i was thinking...well, do you want me here.
One thing i know i wont be able to do is seperate beds. i love his snoring, i love his rolling over into my face. Hmm.
he better not change anything between us other than the sinning thats for sure...
scared upset and confused is what i am.
if he reads this il kill him cos he promised not to.
Love
R xoxo
